I dislike each and every one of you who tries to take the boyfriend away from me. Why? You are deliberately taking him away with you to drift us apart. Why must i be put to such a test? Ya'll premeditatively step on my head after i shower all with lots of friendly trust. I hate this so effing much.
And the same goes to the boyfriend. Can't you feel the clench between us both? I'm so hung up. You make it sound and look very easy and nothing. Ya lahh. You got to have the most fun and freedom while at it. So selfish of you.
Now that he's really going this coming week, i don't even get to have my time with him. Not even a day or lesser. This whole fucking week, no slots for me! Damn ya'll. Intentionally or not, ya'll are simply heartless.
Just yesterday, he was out with the friends. And today, to Siglap. Maybe staying overnight there. Then tomorrow and saturday, with Rizman. Sunday and Monday, God knows what other shoots he's having. Following that, his trip to Vietnam till the weekend. Tell me lahh, how enduring is that. But no matter what, i've to remain compose and not to aggravate at all. I don't wish to put the boyfriend in a difficult situation. Sheesh. Astarg'firullah.
Why does it seems that the boyfriend is not even sensitive towards my issues at all. Whatever i feel seems to be insignificance to him. He don't even remember a promise he made to me. All he cares about is the others around him. It's always hard for him to turn them down a favour but simply facile to me. Hey, i'm a no pushover. I don't wish to be a burden to him thus i wouldn't make him do laborious things for me. But all i want is just a sense of sensitivity and a lil understanding and support from him. Now is that so demanding of me? I'll get it if i am.
Certainly, i don't want him to sacrifice his sleep or whatever necessary routine of life that he needs, just for me. Example like rushing over in the wee morning just to squeeze in a minute for me. I don't want all that. No point. You'll later end up accusing me of robbing those resting time of yours. And i absolutely don't need you to sacrifice work and important tasks in life for me neither. All i want is for you to balance out your time between me and the others. Think about that.
We are really losing it. To me, it's all a drama facade when it comes with others appearence. Everything seems soo honest and nothing's amiss. Haiz. What an ulterior pretense.
Artlessly, i simply don't know how else to help us. Authentically, it's enough for me. But time and time again, you give me endless high hopes. Guilelessly, i believed you once agian. Sigh..
The girl behind this writes, Shalyn
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