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"..i don't trust you. i never show my love to you. i've been unfair towards your freedom. i never understand you enough. i caged your passion and interest. etc.. in short, i'm never good enough for you!"
How i wish i could have other alternative. I can't voice out nor can i be myself around you. Yes. That's how drastic the change has taken in. Oh i guess you can say whatever you want to say about me. Judge me for all i care. I've quit crying over such aimless accusation. That was the LAST you've heard. The next time, i'll be glad to bring out the bitch in me. Damn. Love game, I HATE IT.
Everytime i come to you for a listening ear or a friendly talk, you NEVER fail to bring down my self-esteem. Condemn me in my every way. Advices you say? More like disheartening me for everything. And everytime i'm trying to proof a fact or a point, YOU WILL NEVER BELIEVE ME. What others say is always what you'd rather believe. Well, you claimed you're not happy? Hell i donno what else i can do to give you all the happiness in the world! I give you soo much yet to you i don't. I changed for the sake of us but to you i will NEVER ever change. That's why i make it a point that change is biase. No use changing and cleansing when you don't even care to acknowledge it.
Looking back at our 11th. It wasn't a smooth one. Oh well, so was the 10th, 9th, etc.. And yes i remembered the note i passed to you. Hope you still do.
...by our 1st year and things are not settled, i'll definitely pack my back and leave. You have a month to arrange a good time for us to sit, spill and settle the lil disputes we've been keeping in vengeance. Find true happiness yet once again.
FUCK.
Time is running out.
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This blogg is a little stagnant. Yeahh i know that. But don't worry, i ain't moving again. Hahahaa. I was just busy with my online portfolio. Aim to make it as impressive as possible. I would love to hear positive comments afterwards such as "..wow! it's amazing!" or "..isssk. Nice sia!" or maybe speechless is better. Hahahaha. Yes very ambitious indeed. That's the reason why i take aloooot of time to get it done.
Ok on the otherside, i've been kept busy at work with the new kids production for Suria. Interesting. Besides that reality, life has been pretty much a drama. Love, family, friends.. Aaah. Shall not elaborate further. And of course, MUSE was AWESOOOOME!!!!
Hahaha. On random thoughts, i'm very much uptight now. Friends told me to loosen up! Oh well, some important people in my life is messing my head with shits. I'm tryna be ok. I'm tryna make things better. But the efforts not worth the penny. Instead, it's aaaaall my fault again. Maybe i shouldn't bother trying. Or better still, i kno i want the life back. So, i'm gonna try harder! I won't quit for now. Hear that?!! I won't! Maybe until i'm tired of it or when the situation is not mendable.
Ok that's all for now. I'm blogging at work right now while waiting for some confirmation from Azni and Najib.. I'm enjoying the moment as much as possible now.. Heheee. Coz Keith just left. Hanie, Licia, Hady or in another words, my usual culprits are all shooting outdoor. So it's just me. Cool.. :))
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Aaah. Sweeeeeet. My Muse concert tix is greatly a gift by Alan. I'm very much greatful to baby. Oh well, it's our favourite band. Hehehee. I pray that all will go well till the very end. We've waited and anticipated for them to perform here in Singapore for years already. Let's end the waiting! So calling all Muse fans, get up, get out and see ya'll on the 16th! Woohooooo!!
Ok. Insya'allah i'll get to strike off a name from my list of 'People whom i wanna meet sooo much!' soon. Yeayness. Woohoo! *jumping jumping jumping jumping jumping* And who you may ask? Heh heh heh heh.
I wanna meet this angel..
Chris is the bassist for the band Muse. And yes, I'M GOING TO THE MUSE CONCERT ON THE 16TH!! Ho ho ho. If all goes well, as yall know, its gonna be held at the Fort Canning. One night only yaw. Insya'allah.. ((:
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