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Aah. Finally, had a good 8-hrs of sleep. Woke up not to a bright sunny morning but to a loud thunder that comes with the very heavy rain and lightning instead. What a chilly day.
The family came home later than usual today. Must have been caught up with the downpour. It was a super heavy rain, mind you. The skies were not only dark but reddish. Even i can't look out of the window, the lightning seems to flash almost every half a second. The motorbikes parking lot was also flooded. At that point of time, i was only thinking of the nearing end of the world. Subhana'llah.
I'm currently taking over one of the many projects from the boyfriend. So doing and learning something new has always been favourable to me, especially when it comes to the media works. I'm keen of such. No matter how irksome or immense the work is, i'll do it! Heh. How desirous.
Yesterday was satisfactory. Had a long day at the boyfriend's. He did his thingy with the bass while i'm with the editing. So i heard. He told me of the week to Vietnam. To help the Moods out by covering in for Wan on the bass. I was crushed. Though i gave him calm and confident words of support and encouragement, my heart was actualy screaming not to let him go. I was very apprehensive. I fear and worry for the boyfriend. Moreover, never have he left me all alone. I was really taken aback.
What other choice do i have, but to willingly let him fly there with them. All i can do, is to pray for the best yet for him. May he have a smooth journey there and later, comes home safely. But as for now, i would like to keep him close to me. Appreciate his presence and if possible, spend more time with him. I just want to satisfy my assuarance, thus letting him have a good time. Ok, enough of that for now. I'm confident, i'll be typing in full entries of him on the week that he's away. You'll get boredom as a result. Can't help it lahh babe.. Haiz.
This weekend is Sis Dhiah's wedding. Gosh. That is so impromptu. Nevertheless, the elder brother reminded me to be at the wedding. I simply miss the Safari Family. I remembered how close we used to be, the family and i. Those were the days.. So initialy i was hoping the boyfriend would accompany me on that day. Told him before hand but sadly, he have to turn me down.. I couldn't say more.
So much things had happenend the past week. I almost do things so as to resign myself from life. I just wasn't thinking straight nor being strong at all. How depress can i get. I humiliated my own life. Tsk. Just shake your head everybody. I'm such a shame to my self.
I had a long chat with the boyfriend. We trade deep opinions and feels. It has been an upmost honest spill out. Pure and innocence. The tears fell endlessly troughout. And 20 mins after the conversation, the boyfriend rushed over to console me. I realised he's sweet and all and i'm very much gratified. Had a good warm hug from him and that's all that matters.
Moving on, i hope this is a start of a change. I hope life will alter itself to the better. And i hope the boyfriend too will start to pay more attention to me and please me more. As that has been constantly descending of late..
The girl behind this writes, Shalyn
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