
"..You're still the one whom iritate me worst. To think again, how did i end up being soo in love with you then. Eurgh. Love is simply blind. Listening to you talk, thickens my ego. It was just a mistake that you called me. You should have just stop and drop the initiative of yours to dial my number. By not doing so yesterday, was the BIGGEST MISTAKE of the century. You disgust me dude. From the day that you left me, till the day that i loathe you. And to think again, i still do. Bleaurgh. Well, don't bother asking for such forgiveness from me. Seek from the one Above."
Well, i wonder why the whole chunk of hesitation upon receiving the call that i'm accepted. Wasn't that happy-jumpy at all. Bummer. Was all ecstatic and looking forward for the whole new experience then. Hmm. But that was three weeks ago yaw. I guess the feels has changed into some negatory ones. Ah. No use muttering about this now. I've signed the papers. Hoping for a miracle though. Sigh..
Damn. This year Syawal wasn't all i vision it to be. So far during this last week of Ramadhan, everything seems to be going against me. And it's the week of lailatul qada'. Masya'allah.. What's happening to me?
Got the feeling that the meds are starting to take control of my body system especially the moods and emotions. Damn it's getting tougher. I'm more temperamental and fickle minded. But if i'm happy, im esctatic! Doh! Dumb, i know. Oh well.. I'm just a crazy woman. Serious! Ask anyone and they'll definitely agree on that. Especially my boyfriend. Sooner or later, he'll dump me for sure. Cannot tahan with the huge diffrent tides of my moods. But please lahh.. Don't leave me hokkay. =((
Please lahh Shalyn, wake up and smell the coffee! Bring back to old-self. Don't dwell to much on those shiznits. It ain't worthy. Make the last few days of Ramadhan worthwhile. Ikhtiar and control every emotions and desires. It's oh-so-important. Watch every words and every steps. Show some love lahh babe!
Oookies. Sonic and Tetris have been my favourite pass time now. Been hogging on it for hours every day. Simply hypnotized. Heheheee. Ok now, let's stop that and divert my attention back to designs and illustrations. It's been quite a while now darling.. Let's try that media thingy again. :))

The girl behind this writes, Shalyn



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