Getting to know something i should have not know, as a result, it hurt me bad. In that split second, i'll rage with anger and jealousy. For which later, i felt i was dumb enough to actualy take the extra mile to find out something that doesn't concerns me now, later or simply at all. Well, like they say.. Curiosity kills the cat. Things that happened in the past are history. Why can't i just leave them alone? Sigh..
I felt poorer when it comes to affection. Seems like all i able to persue are plain revenge and angst. I just want all my answers to the millions of questions that i propose. I'm asking for an absolute assurance. Is it something tidious and complex to ask for? But truth be told, i am what i am. And i won't say it out loud of what i feel or think. Yes, i am perplex.
So i had a good timeout with my loved one mainly. After being discharged, all i was looking for was a company. Terribly in need of someone to help me divert the thought of my becoming-serious illness. Family are out of the question. I know they themselves are terribly disappointed and worried. And so, my besties were there for me. Had a lil night out of fun.. And most importantly, laughter. Since that day onwards, everything seems to fall into place. I prayed for an easier life. The one that i can glide through all negativities. And Alhamdulilah.. Some way and somewhat, i felt the good difference. Well, maybe this is what they call perseverence.
Side effects of the meds are taking in. It's taking control my emotions and feelings. Bad bad bad.. But all i can try to do is to fight fight fight. Yeahh. Sigh.. What am i becoming into..?
Unconditional shower of love and care from the boyfriend helps me to heal, though at a slow rate. I feel bettet if not, super great, whenever he manja me. Hehee. Oh well, it feels super great to feel the love from the other half isn't it. Especially when he's there to cuddle you and surrounds you with his warmth and affection. Simply alluring..
Ultimately, i snipped my hair bloody short. To the extend that friends started to call me bawang. Bawang kechik lahh.. Bawang merah lahh. All due to the boyfriend. But nevermind. I'm just glad that i chopped it off. Just wanna breath in new things.. If you get what i mean. Heee.
I'll post few pix that i took while visiting Sham Robato the other day. He's getting along ok. Just a long road to total recovery. But other than that, he's fine. getting used to the metal plates on his broken thigh. Hehehee.
Anyway, i hope to get to snapp al lil bit more pics of me and the boyfriend. It's been awhile since we took a pic of us together. I simply wanna do that soon.
But for now, i'm to get ready! Qishy will be waiting for me at the NEL station. i don't wanna be late yaw.
The girl behind this writes, Shalyn
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