• Fact #01: Paid Geylang a tour of the bazaar only yesterday. The first visit during this year's Ramadhan. Toured half of the bazaar. Stayed for about 90 mins.
• Fact #02: Have not bought any baju raya. No new heels. No new handbag.
• Fact #03: The only thing i did in advance this year is, spring cleaned the home sweet home.

And that's when the lil skirmish started, at home. A bit too lengthy to storytell. However, i was hot under the collar. Since, injected myself with a a strong drug to blow the steam off. Eurgh. I'm now as good as being senseless. At the end of the day, the house is very steriled. May i say it's dirtless, distinct and etched. Heh. Effort paid off satisfyingly. But on the other hand i've over-worked myself that i ended up being all burnt out, drained, feeble, infected, etc. Don't even think of asking why? how? or whatever. Just glad that it ended off with a balance feud.

Tears flowed in dispair the other day. Mind was from all over to a definite blank. With mix feelings of worry, confuse and paranoid. It's the case with the boyfriend. Sad to see, he teared in disappointment too. Sigh.. How do i explain thoroughly of my feels and thoughts? As certain as i am, i felt that this time round, it's worth the paranoia. I used not to doubt a single percent of his love that he showered me. Still, the consistent bicker and bumps. But i soo do-not-understand the situation now. His behaviour changed, to a more sensible and loving. It's a good thing, that i know. He's more understanding and sensitive towards me. All eared and geared whenever i'm in need of my other half. Definitely more manja. Yes. All i ever want from my boyfriend. It's like a dream came true. So, why now then i feel the sudden doubts in his love? Ah. Love is forever intricate. Still, i love the way we are now. He'll get what he wants and so do i. Hopefully a 'happily ever after' fairytale..

I'm excited for the cash that will flow into my can-spend-all-i-want pocket. Hmm.. More like spending them on paying for my still due bill and whatever own necessities. Well, sure to put aside some dough for a lil getaway with the only boyfriend. A reward after all the roughs we've been through. Just a lil prezzie from me. Rather, to prove my sincerities. He whom my heart beats for and treasure tonnes. Deep true feels here.. So something to really look forward to. :))

Insya'allah.. God's will.