Monday, December 4
Once bitten, twice hurt.
My heart swells with negatory ailments. I don't like the 'you' now. Treating me like dump. What is all that for? You stressed to me that i'm the only, i'm special. Oh, so by ignoring me presence and talking to me like as if i'm a prostituting bitch, is special lahh? And when i got hurt and angry for all that, it's my fault and it's wrong also lahh for telling and sharing with you? Yes yes. Go treat other sweet, nice ladies out there better. Go the extra mile, even the search engine, to find that dream girl of yours. As if 3 weeks ain't enough. Sorry for not being chinese-fair looking, jap style, indonesian smile girl. I'm sorry for being just me. Not to your standard/expectation/liking at all. I love, but i'm just too hurt to love. I cant't say. I can't complain. I can't share. Because if i do, you won't even reciprocate nicely. I don't understand you at all what.. Right? It's just hard being you.. Right? Others never appreciate and understands you well. Well, i know, i fall into that category. The 'Unappreciative, Useless, Unpretty' category. Honesty isn't the only game here. Sincerity too. We'll see how it goes with all your past promises. I'm not judging you. Yes, i'm always the weaker one. I'll take my time to eat my humble pie and pack my bags and bid goodbye. You'll see lesser and lesser of me in future, and eventually none.
when you start to react lifeless and nothing to everything that i say, i already thought that something is not right..
when you start to say lesser 'iloveyou' while looking deep into my eyes, i already thought that something is not right..
when you start to kiss me lesser, i already thought that something is not right..
when you start to change your reactions in everything that i do, i already thought that something is not right..
when you honour what others might think rather than mine, i already thought that something is not right..
when you start to turm my pleasure of love down, i already thought that something is not right..
when you start to ignore my every solemn tears, i already thought that something is not right..
and when you start to blame me for all and gives up,
i finally realised.
things are not right anymore.

♥6:12:00 AM♥